I know I've been absent for a while. The truth is, I've been saving up posts as drafts, but not posting them because I kept changing my mind about my project. This post is originally from March, just so you have an idea of the timeline:
So I've scrapped my secret mystery project yet again. This time though, it was due to time constraints and changing feelings towards the nature of the video. Since I'm no longer using this as my final, I feel like I can go into more detail about it.
I originally planned to do a rotoscope for my final of a song I fell in love with. My dance team FOCUS picked the song for us to dance to and it also reminded me of a friend. I planned to create an animation showing the night we met - as a dance of course- with him as my ever-elusive Peter Pan. I felt like this song would be something I could relate to for a while - since this past year I've felt like a "lost boy" and have had no clue what I'm doing. I've been living day-by-day more so now than ever before, and it's been a challenge. I hate not having a plan for the future and now I'm not taking anything for granted - especially my friends and the time I have with them. It's nice to reminice about the past - like I'm doing in this video - but I don't want to dwell on it to much. As nice as that night was, a lot of shit happened between then and now. Friends were lost, I was ignored and isolated, and there were a lot of tears.
Now, however, I feel like I am in a much better place. Looking back, I know that I am stronger than I was, and in some ways, sadly more weary and less trustful. I'm scared of getting hurt by my friends again, and I'm terrified this will affect me for a while. I also lost my team FOCUS due to poor management, and isolation (yet again) as everyone else became so involved with Greek life that it felt like I was being left out of everything. They cut my art section, refused to give me straight answers on anything, and there were many occasions when I showed up to practice and no one else came.
Luckily, now I have only one dance team to focus on - Nachle and I am very content with that. Nachle is more of a family to me than FOCUS ever was, and we all look after each other. I'm joining their eboard next semester, so I hope to be even more involved with the club and put all my effort into something that works and makes me happy. I also have five new friends that I've grown really close to this semester and on top of that, I have a kick-ass suite of 4 that I'm so excited to move into in the fall. So with things finally looking up, here is what little I did on my rotoscope - maybe one day I'll actually finish it, who knows. And I hope you all had as great of a St. Patrick's day as I had...see you soon!
Also, here's my last unfinished, scrapped attempt at this final - a rotoscope to the song "White Houses" by Vanessa Carlton:
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