Changing my mind again

Hi guys,

So this week is only my second week back and things have been pretty insane.  Way too much drama and I'm already struggling to keep all the balls in the air as far as my schoolwork and clubs go.  I worked on my project for 2 days straight this week and I brainstormed and sketched almost every day for it since I came back to school.

And with that in mind - I think I might try to change my project.  Yes- I would lose all the work I've already done on it - but I think it would benefit me in the long run.  The original project was so specific and time consuming that it would be insanely noticeable if I failed to complete it - and I'd really like to feel like I finished a final (For at least once in my college career).  So I've decided on an idea that's a little more vague - especially in its theme and meaning and it's a lot more creepy - which seems to be where my art's going.  My first two projects for painting and drawing are going to be really similar, so I think that's the new direction I want to take my work.  Here's some in-progess shots of my first few projects this semester:

Above: Advanced Painting WIP 

Above: Advanced Drawing WIP/Concept Sketch

Initial Idea and background Info

If you've perused through my other blog, you might have noticed that my life is pretty messed up at the moment.  I just lost my two best friends last semester and dealt with months of them shunning me and now they completely ignore my existence (despite having one of them in 3 of my classes...).  I've felt depressed, vulnerable, and I've had to reach out to others that I normally wouldn't for advice, fun, a shoulder to cry on - and it's been a struggle.  Right now I'm left with remembering the good old days and not really having any way to get myself back to that point at the moment.

For my project, I was inspired by a song.  I won't reveal too much in case my professor reads this, but it is a song that has been in my life long before shit hit the fan this semester.  My amazing dance team danced to this song last year and it reminds me of all the wonderful memories I had with them before they all graduated and moved on.

This project is definitely a risk for me in more ways than one.  I'm using a different medium than I'm necessarily comfortable with and since my art has been accused of being static - I'm pushing the limits of what I can create.  I'm also taking a risk with the song choice.  Technically speaking, the song is about a girl losing her virginity - which technically isn't the case with me.  The challenge is to not think of this as a purely personal project like I want it to be.  I have an audience to think about too.  I have to carefully select the memories I choose to share in this project and figure out just how much of myself and my private life do I want to reveal to the class.  I'm a very private person, so this terrifies me. I was able to get away with doing more artwork that pushed the limits of what I was comfortable with in Intermediate Painting last semester because Jen didn't make me explain my work at the end of the year.  Even though I'm grateful she did that because it was of a sensitive nature, if I create it - I need to be able to talk about it.

Going into this project, I'm also scared of my personal limits and abilities.  I am extremely hard on myself and a bit of a perfectionist - which I fear is going to kill me on the time constraints we have to create this project.  I started working on it for an hour tonight and already I'm questioning the feasibility of my final.  My final is INSANELY time consuming - just in the planning stages alone, so whether or not I finish on time will also be an issue- and it's an issue I've been struggling with for years.

Anyways, it's getting late and I need to do other homework so I'll wrap it up here.  Please check out my last few blog posts on my other page if you haven't already.  It will really help you understand the mindset I'm in when I'm creating the work.  I'll continue storyboarding until next class - see you then!

At the Beginning with You

So hi everyone!

This is the start of my new (and probably unnecessary) blog!  I have to document my progress on my final assignment for a drawing class this semester and it has to remain a secret to everyone in the class- including the professor.  I'll try to take you through my chaotic process, ideas, and all the bumps along the way.  The goal of the project is to challenge ourselves with an idea so out there that we might end up failing.  So without further ado - I start tonight! Wish me luck...I'm going to need it.